Yikes! I haven't updated in a while, have I? Fail.

Thanksgiving break was great and I want winter break NAAAAAOOOOOOO. I dunwanna study for finals. Dx

21080 / 50000 words. 42% done!
Yeah, okay, fine. I failed NaNoWriMo, quitting before even getting half-way finished. UGHHHH
But! That's 21080 words that I DIDN'T have down before, so... Yay?

In other news, I am addicted to Lady Gaga likewhoa. She's such a freak, I can't help it. ♥

RE: Latest episode of Glee

I cried.

I ADORE this show like whoa. It's just so completely over-the-top and shamelessly ridiculous and cliché that I just. Can't. Help it. Especially when it goes and spends a full episode being stupid and suddenly BAM! SRS MOMENT OMG. And every single time I think "There is no feasible way I could possibly love Sue more than I already do," they go and pull something... Well, not quite like what they did this time, but even so. She is just. So. GodIlovethatwoman.
And huzzah for them finally focusing an episode on someone who isn't Rachel, Will, or Quinn! :D

Meanwhile, back in NaNo Land...

DREAM SEQUENCE HECK YES.

19559 / 50000 words. 39% done!

Thanksgiving Break this weekend!

Guys.

I just killed a little kid.

In my novel.

And I feel horrible about it.

...D:

Technically two kids, though I wrote that one was just a very small body. I think the description was vague enough that it could've just been a little monkey or something that just randomly happened to run in during the massacre.

Yeah. I'm gonna go with that.

...I got, like, a thousand words out of it though. And now Felix has a FANTASTIC reason to hunt Raum down and rip him a new one, even though they'll eventually be on the same side. So it was totally worth it...

14857 / 50000 words. 30% done!

Okay, no it wasn't. But editing is for December.

It's weird. During the week I'm dying for the weekend to get here, but on the weekends I want to be in class. In high school I was all about Fridays, but that was back when I lived in Oklahoma where there was stuff to do in town. But here in Buttmonkey, Tennessee? Not so much.
I'm hoping to meet up with my mom over in Nashville this weekend, though. And if not, I'll at least see her next week when I go home FOR THANKSGIVING BREAAAAAAAAAK 8D OMGYESFINALLY

I'm getting together with some friends tonight to play mau. We haven't done that in a while, especially since work and mid-terms and everything are really starting to pile up. Should be fun. :)

AND LOL, GUESS WHO'S STILL RUNNING EMBARRASSINGLY FAR BEHIND ON NANO?

8994 / 50000 words. 18% done!

...Me! 8D
I'm planning to get at LEAST 2K down before I go to bed tonight, meaning I should probably study Civ and that Jesus biography, like, um... Right now. Looks like I'm gonna be making good use of Write or Die later.

14 days until Thanksgiving Break!

I AM SO READY FOR THIS WEEKEND OMG


Aaand here's quick update before I hit the hay:

7609 / 50000 words. 15% done!

Yeah, running a bit behind. But I can catch up this weekend. Today was pretty nutty. xD

16 days until Thanksgiving Break!

Go away, Adam. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET RID OF THIS CHARACTER. I just wanted to throw him in and introduce him and throw him back out because he's really not that important until much, much later. I just wanted to establish that he was there, good looking, and another object of Evy's endless affections. That's it. And I can't think of how to write him out of this scene. a;sdlkfj
He's had, like, two lines and I hate him already. :|
And he's sort of sexist too. God, Evy, why do you even like hi-

...Oh yeah.

And wow, why did this entire chapter diminish into teenagers obsessing over who likes whom? Ick.

4052 / 50000 words. 8% done!

There is a strong slight chance that I'm going to have some sort of personality disorder by the end of the month. Just a head's up.

But at least now I know how to use whose and who's.

19 day till Thanksgiving Break!

So, um, one of my characters is hardcore crushing on another one of my characters.

...I did not foresee this.

2694 / 50000 words. 5% done!

I'm honestly surprised how smoothly this is going. Of course, it's still the weekend and this is only the first day, but it's not that bad. Though I've been warned that the first week has everyone fired up but the second is MURDER.
Even so, I'm still excited. I mean, I haven't even had to resort to someone going "I'm sorry, could you repeat that? I didn't hear you." and the other dude repeating himself and the first guy going "No, I still didn't catch that. What now?" like fifty times...

Yet. 8D

This small piece of productivity was brought to you by Randomly Suicidal College Wireless Internet for constantly dying so I can't procrastinate.

Also, FUN FACT: "Jai ho" is Hindi for "may you have victory." It's also the name of one of the most insanely catchy and dance-worthy songs ever.

Happy Halloween, all.

HOT DAMN NANOWRIMO AT MIDNIGHT! 8D

21 days until Thanksgiving Break.

EDIT: So it's officially begun. Dammit, I knew I shouldn't have started Slumdog Millionaire forty-five minutes ago. xD
EDITEDIT: OMFG THAT WAS THE GREATEST MOVIE EVER. Just when I think I couldn't love it more EVERYONE STARTS DANCING. <3 I. JUST. OMFG. This is MY FAVORITE EVER. 8D

...Okay, now to that novel. xD
EDITEDITEDIT: Great, now I don't want to write my story because OMG THIS MOVIE. THIS. MOVIE.

( What I wrote. LMAO what is this I don't even... )

THE SCREEN STARTED FLASHING RED WHENEVER I PAUSED OMG. D:

I am SO pumped for Sunday! I'm probably going to fail miserably at this, but still. Just one more day!

22 days till Thanksgiving Break.

NANOWRIMO STARTS SUNDAY OMFGGGGGGGG

I've gotten really far on my outline. I've written the title and... Yeah, that's as far as I've gotten. I'm thinking about maybepossiblyidk doing a fanfic since I've had a plotbunny for a KH one in my head for, like, three years now. But I reallyreallyreally want to do an original story because I love my OCs so much and they're so neglected as it is andandand--

This is my first year and I'm starting off FANTASTICALLY. 8D I will be nothing short of ecstatic if I get 1K down, not gonna lie.

God, how I wish this was the worst of my problems. xD

26 Days till Thanksgiving Break. I MISS MY DOGS. D:

SO…

Um…

Yeah, I dunno. I feel like I should update. xD

I’ve been really up-and-down lately, like one minute I’ll be nice and content with who I am and the next I’m depressed as hell and hating myself. Seriously, for the last three weeks I just can’t figure myself out. I’ve been sort of shutting people out and just keeping to myself, and while I’ve always been shy, it’s never really been this bad. And the more I think about it the more emo I get, and it just gets worse and worse until I actually start crying, to which I can only say, “Um, WTF. You’re not in high school anymore. Put on your big girl panties and deal with it.”
I’ve always had this huge fear of rejection, which is stupid because I’m pretty sure no one really thinks about me that much. I used to literally OBSESS over what other people might think of me to the point where I finally just forced myself to think of other things. I literally had to think to myself, “Okay, ENOUGH” and jump on another thought train, and this method worked pretty well. I’m still self-conscious, but it’s NOWHERE near as bad as it used to be.
And now that I’m venting a bit, I think I know what the problem is: I refuse to be myself around other people. And, well, it’s not really difficult to understand why when I’m an agnosticmaybethingamawhat at an all-Christian college.
And might I add that I wouldn’t even be in this little predicament if I would, gee, I dunno, BE MYSELF around other people. Especially my parents.
But I’ve already bitched in another post on why I can’t do that to my parents… Well, okay. I could but it wouldn’t end well. It’s just easier to be who they want me to be, and I can save my real self for my friends.
But being here is kind of like being around my parents all the time with none of my real friends around. And I have a hard time making real friends here- not because people here are unfriendly, far from it- but because I refuse to be me. And if they like the front I put up, it just can’t last.
I’ve been reading up on shyness and one way to overcome it seems to be simply realizing that most people probably don’t hate me as much as I hate myself. In fact, the vast majority probably don't give a damn and that's actually somehow sort of comforting.

But seriously, I’m writing Dear Abby or something. This crap is annoying. :|

…So yeah. *mops up all the emo* To make up for all this mess:

PUPPIES! 8D

Dear Kingdom Hearts Series,

Phuck you guys. I hate this series forever. :|

Just watched the saddest scene in Days in English and actually fully understands it now and will probably never be happy again ever,
Ayume

P.S. Ice cream! D: Ohgodohgodwhyyyyyyyyyy ;_; *sobsobsob*

Sorry for the lack-of-updateness. College has been keeping me busy. Ughhh, I can't wait till Thanksgiving Break!

I would love to be a story board artist, and I don't think it'll ever happen. I'm not disciplined enough, I don't have the right drawing habits, I don't take it seriously enough, etc. etc. I draw what I want because I want to draw it, and I'm too stubborn to make it work for a career.

But it's cool because I sort of don't really want to turn a hobby into a job, y'know? It would sort of take the fun out of it. I'm afraid I'd start to hate it because I'd HAVE to draw (something that I'm kind of struggling with now in my 2-D Design class). I HATE hating to draw stuff. a;sdlkfj

...Does that make sense?

But what I'm really thinking about getting into is editing and/or publishing. Or hell, being a librarian or archivist actually sounds like fun to me. STFU, THOSE ARE BOSS CAREERS

What do you do with a B.A. in English~?
/Avenue Q

Bitch about anything and everything to people all over the world. ILU, interwebs. And you, facebook.

Yeah, that's a great way to start a post. xD

I've got musters midnight tonight. It's basically just the dorm mama explaining all the rules to everyone rooming here. So here I am, trying to stay awake since attendance is mandatory.
I think I'm gonna go draw on the walls or something. One of my suitemates got some sidewalk chalk and started doodling all over the walls in our living/dining room area. It comes off with water, so we should be able to clean it all off before the semester ends. It's so much fun, though.

Ohmygaaaaaaaaaawd I am so tired. I'm gonna be saying that a lot, aren't I? xD

LMFAO

Oh Victoria Secret. Stop. Just stop. xD

EDIT: ANDGETTHEHELLOUTOFMYTAGSDAMMIT.

Well, I moved into my dorm. I've been doing this big freshmen-get-together-shebang all weekend and classes start Wednesday.

...Is it weird that I'm REALLY looking forward to class? Because I've been bored as hell ever since I got back from Europe; I wanna work already. o_O

So yeah. Hopefully I'll be able to update often, but I'm not really sure just yet. It just sort of depends on my workload this semester. :\

AAAUGH I am so tired. *dies*

-- Steel Magnolias FTW

Ganked a meme from thenecromance 8D

Ten random things you didn't want to know about me probably ever. Comment with 10 random things about yourself?

1. I've got this big mole on the outside of my right foot. When I was little, my sister would draw little legs on it and tell me it was a bug. D:
2. I can sing the theme song to The Nanny. Niles! ♥♥♥
3. I'm a compulsive peeler. I go at anything: soda bottle wrappers, scabs, paint, wallpaper, my own skin, you name it.
4. I hate claymation. It's fugly. :|
5. I have a Sora plushie that I sleep with whenever it storms. Yes, I am eighteen and a half. Shut up. xD
6. Despite the fact that I'm eighteen and a half, I am constantly mistaken for a high school freshman. Heck, one older couple took me for a twelve-year-old once.
7. I ship Stan/Kyle from South Park and Mary/Jerry from Code Monkeys.
8. I still have my favorite baby blanket. The two layers of cloth are just barely hanging on by the cotton layer between them. It smells old and dusty, and I think there's actually a little blood stain on it. o_O
9. I sing the Final Fantasy Victory Fanfare whenever I accomplish something. If not out loud, then I hear it in my head.
10. I'm usually really giddy and upbeat when I PMS. Go figure. xD

I have a love/hate relationship with my stupidly high metabolism. On the upside, I can eat whatever I want and not gain weight. On the downside, I can eat whatever I want... and not not gain weight. Yeah.
But college starts in about a week, so the freshman fifteen should hit and take care of that. If that doesn't, then all the stress surely should. :D;
That and it's at least healthy. Sometimes I kinda wish I was double-jointed, though. :P

...WTF, Victoria's Secret. Get your crap out of my tags. *backspace*

Anyway, since I've managed to miss it for the last three years, Happy AkuRoku Day to anyone who cares! 8D


Everyday after the the fourteenth of each month is RokuShion Day. I just decided. :I

1) YOU GONNA TAKE THAT FROM THAT PUNK? AW, HELL NAW. Speak up, dammit! Don't be such a pushover!

2) You have the most wonderful big sister ever. Don't be such a brat to her.

3) OHGOD DON'T TAKE NALA TO THE FURNITURE STORE. YOU'LL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN. True story: When I was maybe five or six-ish I had this tiny little Nala puppet. You stuck your first two fingers in two pockets to move her arms and paws. I loved her so.
But then my family went to a big furniture store and I took her with me. I must have set her down somewhere at some point because eventually I realized she wasn't on me. My sister helped me look all over, but we never found her. *tear*
Funnily enough, my big sister actually lost a little baby doll at a furniture store when she was little. Somewhere in that place there's a room full of forgotten toys. D:

4) DON'T GET RID OF THAT VANILLA ICE TAPE OR YOUR HEADSET. I wish I could find those now!

5) Just because Mom and Dad are right about a LOT of things doesn't mean they're right about *everything*. Think for yourself!

6) Get a beta reader.

7)You don't have to be the best at everything.

8) He's not worth it.

9) He isn't either.

10) Honey, it doesn't get any easier. Toughen up!

11) Enjoy it while it lasts. High school can be a bitch, but you'll miss it when it's over. Yes, even marching band.

12) AND WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T GET INTO HARRY POTTER. YOU'LL NEVER ESCAAAAAAPE. D: SNAPE KILLS DUMBLEDORE.

To: Disney
RE: Epic Mickey/Steampunk Willie/whatchamacallit

It's been a while since I was afraid to walk into a dark room in my own home or get too close to the space under my bed. I'd kind of forgotten what it was like.

Now I remember.

Thanks for scaring the ever-loving monkey hell out of me.

CAN'T SLEEP; JAFARTIGGERGATOR WILL EAT ME,
Ayume